Thursday, December 29, 2011

In between anger and something else

It's almost 2 weeks since I lost my job and getting used to being home indefinitely, or at least with no foreseeable conclusion to this hiatus, is taking some getting used to. Part of the reason it feels so strange is that I've been working pretty much non-stop since I was 18. But it's something I'm going to have to adjust to

My last day at work was uneventful but interesting. There was no big send off. No card that the staff had signed. No morning cake and coffee. No drinks after work. Nothing. In fact, just four people came to say goodbye. That's it. The people I worked most closely with were nowhere to be seen. They left the building before I finished. Gone.

The really interesting part was unfortunate. When I was handed my final documents to sign it appeared that even after 12 years, they still hadn't learned to spell my name correctly....not to mention the smile on the person's face who handed them to me, sort of like he was giving me a lovely present.

I guess everyone goes through a range of emotions when this sort of thing happens. When I was told about my impending departure I was a little numb...when I was handed the miss spelt documents I got angry and gave them back to be corrected.

Now, I'm in between anger and something else. Bewilderment, resignation maybe?

Not sure exactly but while I know I have a lot of time on my hands right now, I still feel like I'm just taking a break so need to get a lot of things done. Quickly.

I'll start looking for a new job in February, probably when everyone else is looking as well, but I have a feeling I'll be going in a whole new direction...what that direction is I'm yet to work out. What do they say about destination and journey? ...well, I think the journey's going to be interesting.

At least I hope it is.

Right, well that's the last I'll be saying on this subject. I'm sure you don't want me bleating on and on about my there you have it. Time to move on wards and upwards and time for new beginnings


  1. Gee wiz, you are allowed to feel very crappy about how you were treated. That's appalling!
    You know what, if that's how they treat loyal staff then you are better off not working there. Look at is as an opportunity for a great new start. I wish you all the best for 2012 x

  2. Thanks Sarah...yep you're right. Best out of there. Now onto new things in 2012.
    I hope you have a wonderful year ahead too!!!

  3. I wonder where good manners and compassion have gone too!Many years ago I was let go and told that it was just not my business and I would be better of trying something else! 3 years later they begged me to come back with huge offers. So girl you go show them that you were the last person they should have moved on. I know you will!
    May 2012 be a better year for us all.
    How's the garden looking? xxx

  4. Julienne, thanks for your kind comments. I know 2012 is going to be even better...I just know it.

    I'll post some pics of the garden later in the day, it's not looking too bad at all, all things considered

  5. What's crappy about this situation is the way you were sent off. I believe what goes around comes around and those who sent you off this way will feel it themselves one day. But...

    I'm also a firm believer that if you give this thought, move forward and not stay put, you will find a "new" amazing way to earn money. I also believe (last time I say that) in recreating ourselves periodically which is why I think this will work out better than you could ever imagine.

    I am feeling it for you.


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  7. Oh Lesley!! Sorry about having to delete my terrible spelling in my previous comment :( I am so sorry that this has happened to you, especially the way it happened:( I have read the lovely comments above and am just going to say 'Ditto'. I wish you all the very best for a fabulous 2012 (I have a very good feeling that you will not need any good wishes, though). Hugs ~ Txx

  8. I am just going to wish you a very happy new year and I am sure that you are going to find something loads better to do in the future. Wonderful things happen to wonderful people so I bet 2012 will be your year! X

  9. Thank you all for your lovely comments. I have a feeling 2012 is going to be a bonzer!!! Here's hoping anyway

  10. I am extremely disappointed to hear about how miserably miserable your former co-workers were about your departure. I know you feel cast adrift, but frankly, if they never learned how to spell your name, I'm glad you're out of there! Good grief.

    Here's to an exciting new adventure in 2012...and from the looks of your lovely New Year's post, it seems like it got off to a good start! xo

  11. Thanks Lauren...I'm sure 2012 is going to be a great year! I feel it in my bones lol.


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